=another day is going by im thinking bout you all the time im lost without you=

2005-08-05T23:36:00.000-07:00

hey..its finally the weekend...how time flies...oh well...had hospitality today and i din go to hillsong youth...so yeah..went to aunts church and used the com....damnit..i was late today in handling my Studies of religion assessment...5 mins late..oh well..whatever...paul ho had a fit today...his a lit retarted...he drank milk which he is alegic to..and he had an alergic reaction..lol...haha...yeah..anyway its not funny...oh well...brooke,emily and jane cried...cos it was like so shocking...yeah..the amblulance came...and they took paul away...sad...i cut my hand during hospitality...haha..oh well...wasnt that great ...ha....

dave gave me and tim a lift to towers today....saw sai at the bus stop with the japanese girl...they are like heaps shy..ha...the japs went to blue mountians today...oh well..yeah...met up with sai and chelsea and lexie and the jap girl at towers after that...took a pic or 2 with them using sais cam...mad...after that went to aunts church..yeah...and i saw a pair of jeans from gerneral pants and co...its like 120 bucks..im trying my best to save 10 bucks a week..whoa.....laters...hope everyone has a great weekend..ciao........
xoxoxoxo

2005-08-04T20:10:00.000-07:00

argh...i got an assessment due tmr and i haven started..im like struggling...help me...argh....oh well...gotta write an essay bout some religion...1000 words...far out..and its like a 3 part assessment..and i got pdhpe asessment due next tue ehich i have done onli like halfway...screwed..and i got a bio and again another part of religion due on the follwing week...argh...im so freaking busy...damn..far out.....

2005-08-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

hey..peeps...its been such a long time i last updated..oh well...yup...school was alright today...yups....hmmm....played basketball during lunch as there was nothing else to do...yup..oh..and i passed my maths test.....got scolded by mr grice...i was walking pass his class as they were having maths..the peeps in my class were from my year as well but i was doing standard maths while they are doing advance maths.....and so i couldnt find my maths class..and i shouted to vasali "vasali wheres maths?"and the class who was having maths laughed....and i laughed along with them...as i was walking away i got clled by mr grice and he ticked me off..haha...yeah...wadever..lol...damn...got hospitality till 4 on friday...and i cant go to youth...argh...lots of work to do..far out..oh well....im so glad its wednesday already...m so looking forward to the weekend...oh well..laters.....

2005-02-24T00:46:00.000-08:00

now in aus..yeah...made lots of ppl..yeah...its so different here....wonder hows everything back home....yeah..hmm....im like the new kidd!!!!lol..oh welll...yteahh..everyones friendly...yeah...i miss the food......

ON some days,when times get through
I feel as though im alone
BUt when i call your name
Your're here

Doesnt matter what i used to think
It doesnt matter howmuch i haved sinned
It doesnt matter who i was and where ive been
Youll stay here guiding me

On some days i feel the cold
When no one'sby my side
But then ill look up to you
For warmth

Doesnt matter what i used to think
It doesnt matter how much i have sinned
It doesnt matter who i was and where ive been
YOull stay here guiding me

On some days when i feel down
Emptyness fills within
But then you willcome to me
With open hands

Doesnt matter what i used to think
It doesnt matter how much i have sinned
It doesnt matter who i was and where ive been

For i know that you will be with me for eternity...

stepf here.

2005-02-20T05:17:00.000-08:00

okay its me stepf. he left for sydney already on 19/02/05.
he's gonna do grade 11 there and it means JC 1 for us. he says he might be taking hospitality or desigining. how fast their system is than compared to us here in singapore.
just finish talking to him on the phone and he ask me to update. well now its 9.20 and over at his place its 12.23 or something. he's experiencing summer now yea. he's starting school tml, lets see how it goes. i'll update when he calls and tell me next week. haha(:
well ... he say he's having a room of his own and its very SHIOK.
his staying at his aunt's place and they have 2 dogs? breed- maltese. how cute. haha

lets hope he'll be happy and that he'll adapt to it soon.(:
and if you guys want to pass anything or tell him anything, just look for me yea?
cause i'll be sending something over so if need we'll send it together.

2005-01-29T19:50:00.000-08:00

vince ask me update.yoo all can guess who m i.
haha .sighs.i duch knoe wha to say lahs ..but i`ll sure miss vince.
=) he`s been a reli goot fren // bodyguard to me all tis while.haha .
goot tat he passed his test. hope tat he`ll b hapi whereba he is.
so bored nw..run out of tings to wryte liaos..no mre jokes to say oso.
wait fer nx tyme wen vince come and blog bahs.sighs ..haha .
frm m[ E ]]

2005-01-27T20:30:00.000-08:00

hiya...stepf thanks alot!!!!i really really appreciate it very very much!!!i really wanna thank you all your support and the advices you have given me!!!yuppies...this entry shall be specially dedicated to anie-

deAr goD,
i want to thank you for this b-e-a-u tiful day..although it was ok for me...i want to thank you for all the friends you have given me....sometimes i forget to be greatful to them..i want to thank you especially for stepFaniE..thanks for sending her to pray for me. ...she has done alot for me..i have no regrets knowing her..she has been giving me encouragment,supporting me all the way through my last 3years...i really appreciate you for letting me know a great buddy like her..i hope that she will always be strong in faith and neva give up....i also pray that she will not be left out by any of her friends and to feel loved!!!lord if stepfanie feels like she's all alone,please tap on her heart or show/give her a sign..and remind her that you are always right beside her.i know shes having a though time too...i hope that she will be able to take things slowly one step at a time..if she has any problems i hope that she would be able to talk to you lord or she can find me!!!ill always try my best to lend a listening ear to everybody and not just her alone...i also hope that edlyn is recovering well as she is sick!!!!lastly i want to thank audrey for her wonderful help!!!thankies!!!through you GOD nothing is impossible...!!! in jesus name i pray..AMEN!!!

*peAce

2005-01-26T05:50:00.000-08:00

hiya...thankies eds...yeah...all the jokes you wrote..cheered me up..yeah...hmmm...nth much happened today..ya...boring...oh..have a nice flight back faith...yup!!!take care and thanks for all the advice and answers..yuppies...suddenly i feel like writing/praying right now...in my bloG...yeah....some of you might think its weird or either my brain is screwed!!!!i feel that writing this would make me feel better...im waiting for my english results this week...im so nevous...

deaR gOd,
there are sometimes when i just feel like im alone,it can happen even when im on the middle of all my friends or the entire school...please tell me that ur right beside me when i feel alone..i would really appreciate it...i know i pray to you only when im either in trouble or when i need your help..sometimes im just too tired to pray...and sometimes im simply just too busy..im sorry ive been neglecting you..yeah..im sorry...i dun gain anything from it...ive also been having trouble coping with work and everything around me..i hope that you would help me..thank you...aMEN....

2005-01-25T04:26:00.000-08:00

hiie ppls,i`m Edlyn.long tyme no c.Vincent say i can help him update aneting to entertain MYSELF.okies.so here i`m gna bcome Vincent:
" i stopped miting Edlyn and Rk to go skool togethers cos nowadays i mit stepf to go.i`m gg to take my test results tis wk and jus now wen i told Edlyn,she cursed me ..i hate her lyk hell.. budden nbm lahs.haha.i`m super bored now.i tink i`m DUMB..YESH..I`M DUMB.haha.i`m gna buy a digi cam then can take fotos wib my frens bfer gg off-if i pass my tests-and i MUS take wib edlyn.hahaha.then can go develop the fotos.wolala.nth to say."
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aiyah..actuali Vincent din say the above tings..ish i create one.lols.but the digi cam tinggy..he reli said tat he wna take wib me lo.i`m nunch tat bhb oryte.haha.aiyah,i got nth to comment abt.but vince ish reli dumb.=/ oryte i`m gg cranky nowadays.sighs*oryte,signbing off-
the FAKE vincent,
Ong Edlyn.

2005-01-23T13:30:00.000-08:00

hmmm..now so boring..so i have decided to update as there was nothing for me to do...

friday:
on friday morning went on a shopping spree..with my sisters & mother..so tiring..in the end bout 2 shirts..lol..den bout 4 plus went to meet stepf and audry..den walked to cineleasure...go meet darren,shawn,keith & nigel..yeah..den walked to lido and stepf and audrey and i went to watch seed of chucky..darren and the rest did not wathc as they had watched it already..instead they went walking around town..yeah...the seed of chucky had no story sense...onli showed them going on a killing spree..yeah..sian...den later went back to cine cos darren wanted to buy bag..ya..bought a DC bag...ex sia..yeah...hmmm...den later went coffee bean to eat...shared a tiramisu cake with keith..so delicious..lol..ya...den later walked to doby ghuat..ya..den met daniel and his friend on the train..long time never see him..yeah...reached home bout 10 plus plus..ya..

saturday..
woke up bout 715..cos had to go orange grove to take tis english test..yeah...will say more bout it next time..ya...den the test was 3hrs non-stop..tired..i guess i was the youngest there..the rest were adults...omg...ya...den later came back den went for guitar..den later had tuiton..den at night went harvy norman..yeah..nth much la...

Sun...
have to go sch tmr..so sian..haiz...saw my god bro bingfa just now at heartland mall..lol..long time neva see him..yeah...

thats it i guess...tmr 430 gotta go orange grove again..gotta takw this oral test..i hope i will pass my this eng test as it is very important..super important..yrah.....pray for me please...thankies.. my days are up soon..need to spend more time with everybody!!!!!ill be going off soon...real soon..haiz.....how??how??

ciao...PeaCE oUt*

2005-01-20T20:02:00.000-08:00

boring...edlyn call ppl update as she is bored..oh well..ya..im so lazy..lol..hmmm...my birthday was sad......someone close to me was sad...oh well..im sorry!!!!thanks steph,poh ling,geraldine,xiu mei for the bag..so nice!!!=)thankies hwee hong & yvonne for the wallet!!!=)hmmm...still got ppl owe me..haha..right eds???haha...kiddin!!!lol...hmmm....ytd nth much happened..yeah..today also...stepf..im sorry to hear bout wad happened..but its your choice la..ill just support you in whatever decison you make!!!promise ya!!!just like you support me in whatever i do and whatever decision i make!!!thankies!!!!hmmm...today went heartland mall with stepf...saw lots of peeps frm our school..oh well.yeah...hmm..den saw michelle also..working there..lol..haha...hmmm...take care..thats it...peaCE oUt!!!!

2005-01-17T19:36:00.000-08:00

hey,yeah..im back..hmm.yesterday went to watch soccer LIVE at singapore stadium...so super cool...yeah..all the people there were so enthu..so cool...yeah..there were lots of malays...there were also caucasians..they were supporting singpore..lol...yeah...it was so damn crowded..hmm...the singpore sports school was there too..they kept pushing & pushing...bloody hell..no manners..lol..slap you all sia...hmmm..the whole stadium was filled with red...lol..expect 1 portion..was white...reds out-numbered the whites..lol...when people walked pass with food and drinks..everybody would go...food....drinks..it was only our section...lol..funny sia..haha...and there was this indian guy..he was toothless...den he liked ask ppl to cheer...ole ole ole....yeah...but instead they cheered bogay bogay bogay..lol..yeah..funny sia...im sorry stepf..there wernt enough ticks..yeah..sorry...hope ur grandma is fine..yeah..hmmm...i have an english test this coming sat & either mon or tues...it is very important..whoever is reading this..i hope that you guys would pray for me..i realy appriciate it...thankies!!!

school was quite ok today...nothing much happened..din understand what was wrong with jason today...hmmm..oh well..e social studies teacher asked him to sit outside today..yeah....HAPPY BIRTHDAY YU SHUANG!!!!(17th jan) stepf din bring your present today...lol...tmr den pass to you ba...

pEACe OuT*

2005-01-14T23:36:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey,2nd week of school liao..yeah...haiz...shalini transferred school..haiz......oh well..all e best!!!!!yeah...hmmm..today simon came late..lol..den me kiah yong & wei song frm e 4th level shout at him..say he action..cos late comers must run around the field..den he 1st sia..so action..den later mr singh come up to my class & ask who shout just now..den i auto stand up.lol..den wei song..haha...must be that f***** tell one la...complain la..aqua...lol...before mr singh came in..he come into class and scold me lol...and its like onli me..somemore in front of e whole god damn class..lol....like wad the fuck???knns...nvm....scold la...haha...wait he watch out sia...haha...knns..oh well..ya...and eleanor so happy that sly touched her and said xcuse me..lol..haha....ya....yay..birthay coming soon...bout 3 to 4 more days..lol...on 18th..lol..haha...cheer up la eds!!!!

PeAcE Out=

todae todae todae.

2005-01-09T07:02:00.000-08:00

hiee ebrione!!it`s me ONG EDLYN again.
smehow i tink tat i wryte long long nicer to read ryte??!!buahaha-
okies.vince ask fer my help again.NBM.i lub to help ppls yoo knoe.
cos i`m an ANGEL.heehee .
k..hre`s wha vince say:-

"say erm..
today stone at home ya...
so boring...
den later went swimming with the fishes..
and saw yu shuang..
ya...
haiz..
tmr is another sch day....."

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okies.a pathetic entry of onli 8 sentences..so hre`s MY comments.
haha.i lub adding comments sia~
-
eds say:-
"firstly..i din knoe tat yoo hab the power to `stone` at hm..mus teach me the magic power!! tada!!okies-then i oso din knoe yoo culd swim smemre.CLAPS fer yoo.budden oso goot.yoo`r my bodyguard ryte.?so nx tyme if tsunami come yoo can save me cos i`m nunch sure if rk culd swim ya knoe.haha.then if he cunt..yoo mus save both of us..so yoo better grow fatter. muahaha. k lahs..nth muchh to add..YEAHS!tmr skool dae..can go bac c my frens.muahaha.sians -mus mit yoo in the morning eat breakfast. = lols`.kidding.k k..me gtg."

nice comments?lols`.k lahs.hre,signing off,
EDLYN!!(n_n)/ i lubb my name.

todae.

2005-01-08T08:30:00.000-08:00

hiee ppls.i`m EDLYN.okies..ONG EDLYN.
nice name ryte?wahaha.anewaes..
tis simply lazyy vincent ask me to help him update..so hre it goes:
vince -
" tis ish edlyn..helping vincent wryte...asked me to wryte tis....went fer guitar lessons todae...den church...passed meris chocs...was all wet todae..had to hide under tree fer shelter....was all wet..e tree gave me shelter..yeah...den aft tat went fer dinner wib my family+my maid..den airport to fetch shalin off to newyork..i haben seen aunt kathy fer so God darn long...lol...she stil has curly hair....yeah....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to alieen [ 8th january ]] " -

okies.tose above " to " ish vince say de tinggs.ane spelling mistakes or wha..PLS FIND VINCENT ..cos ebritingg ish copied frm him.eben the punctuations oso the same.haha.
okies okies?!and vince say i can add my comments...so hre - it`s EDLYN!!
edlyn -
" dear vince..pls rmbr tat ebrityme it rains..DO NOT HIDE UNDER A TREE FER SHELTER COS YOO MIGHT B STRUCK BY LIGHTNING..n if yoo die..got no one to pei me go skool anemres. and oso..i`ll b left wib one dear bodygurad -rk if yoo die.yeahs.REMEMBER HORS.then ryte..y yoo nb gib me chocs??buahaha -yoo stil owe me snow.!!!and must save monie fer MY BURFDAE hors..3rd april mus rmbr!!n i`m gna suffer tis yr.terrible yr cos gotta mit yoo ebridae in d morning then stil mus entertain yoo n remind yoo tat yoo`r crossing d rd..haha -okies.jkjk`.i knoe i`m stewpigg.bleahs~whteba..i jus wna tell ebrione//aneone tat
I LUB MY NAME.haha."

okies..tis blog ish finally updated AGAIN tanks to ME!!!ONG EDLYN. =D*

2005-01-07T19:35:00.000-08:00

haven updated like...for so long....finally a week has passed...school???school is boring....haha...ya...now my class on e 4th floor...diaoz..haiz...physics teacher change to mr chang...his quite friendly & cool....my friend offer him chocolates den he eat sia..lol...everyday got to see miss tan...haiz..sad la...ytd and today got 4 purits sia..cannot tahan..wana sleep...den saw ah kai..he just came back...coz he was burned by some ppl..they poured petrol on him..haiz..sad...it was reported in e newspaper...his been disfigured badly sia..haiz..oh well..yeah..e freaking sec 1 camp damn fucking irritating....make so much noise....sia la..den e sec 3 express and sec 4 express...very act sia..onli some of them..not all....act like some big shot camp counsellor..knns...shout here shout there...kpkb....hee xiang and afew others go cope water balloons...den throw down...lol..hit e sec 1s..pro..and hit e girl who kpkb so much...congrats...den later dm come up..lol..call me go in..den later we go down again...haha..

today damn sway...after morning ass..we go hall for ass..after morning ass..wei song ken and i went toilet..den later we went into e hall...was about to sit..den another dm come..and ask us where we go..den we din reply..den call uis go n front..by the count of 5..somemore using microphone..in front of sec 3 & 4 & 5...den call us sit down..den say i leader..like wad the hell..nvm..den call us go morning reading tmr..lol..tmr sat sia.haha...whatever la...den later got tis stupid performance..den this guy frm stage point at me..den go down and shake his head...den everybody was like calling my name...duno for wad..lol..den later that guy go point at other ppl lor..nothing better to do....haiz...today damn tired sia..next week even worse..haiz...... edlyn is pissed with me..well..sort of...ya.....oh well..ya...wad to do....my fault la...everyday i think i will me meeting edlyn & rk..den go sch together...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ELizA(5th jan)...& eliEEn..(8th jaN)

2005-01-07T07:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..EliZa(5th jan)& ElIEEn(8th jan)

haiz..edlyn is angry with me...my fault la...dun balme rk..ya....i guess i think im meeting eldyn & rk go sch together....

2004-12-23T20:19:00.000-08:00

yeah yeah yaeh..thank you huh....what a boring christmas...every year it gets worse for me.....no presents from parents...ask them if can go out..no..onli get to stay home with them....no christmas spirt...what the fuck...whatever..im just craping...

2004-12-21T03:20:00.000-08:00

ok its me stepfanie the one who's blogging. not vincent. he's so lazy that explains why i'm helping him.
but he's the one who said all these ...

i just came back frm canada n new york.
so super cool there...hahaha....stayed in my god fathers house..yeah...and erm..i would like to thank stepf for helping me revamp my blog..thankies!!!!merry christmas XMers everybody!!!!!

2004-11-16T23:22:00.000-08:00

fucking hell..flunked my chinese re-exam....fucking mdm png..called my house..talk lots of crap...and say what i shouted at her..and wad very rude.n say wad i neva study for my chinese re-exam...fuck...when she herself very rude..threatened me..duno wad...fuck...who you think you are...??can threaten ppl aarhz??u unresonable old bitch/whore/witch queen...knns...den wad called my dad...he came home duno for wad fuck...den shouted at me...when mum came back scolded me..ya..haiz..ill have to retake my chinese exam on friday..ill have to try my best again...sad....no moood....

2004-11-15T14:32:00.000-08:00

duno wads wrong with e internet..fucking slow..anyway...i changed my handphone leh..change to 7260..yeah..dad forced me to change..actually wanted mums hp..but i had to take this...yeah...might be sticking onto this one..yeah...kendra...where is my 10bucks??you said you either treat me 2 movies or pass me 10 bucks..haha..yeah...haiz..tmr got chinese retest..mus go learn chinese..yeah.....chinese...wo hui qiang hua yu..crap..ya.....bye...

2004-11-10T18:00:00.000-08:00

hmmm..haven been blogging since like last week.,...ya....oh well...had to go school since lastt week..yeah..for a maths and chinese..boring!!!!ya...today after maths went for chinese...ya...frm 1o to bout 1230..yeah...2 and 1/2 hours..ya...cant believe it..yeah...oh welll...nothing much happened onli that i went to school..ya....and sometimes go meet pei shan...ya...hmm...monday accompanied her to chinatown...ya...after school...go to duno wad hotel..and collect something..coz she works there..now i duno if she is still working there..den went back to campass point..ask her to acc me home..coz i 1 person alone so sian..den later went to buy lunch..went to this stall..den the lady's son also from our schooll...sec 4....she told me..duno wad crap..bout her son....ya....den asked if pei shan was my girlfriend or sister...*diaoz...den say sister..if not say girlfriend arhz>>..stewpig...oh well..i did something...but duno if it was right...ya...gave her a shock..and gave me a shock too..ya...crapp...

2004-11-04T23:59:00.000-08:00

eh...came back bout 1030..ya..came back later den mum..ya..went out bout 3..raining so heavy sia..brought out umbrella den later went to give to my maid..ya..so no need to carry umbrella all e way to town..went with darren keith and pei shan..ya..hmm..i went to serangoon mrt to take train...met them on e train..yeah..wasnt any coinsidence...ya...coz told them to meet on e train..cool???nah...im crapping....wanted to watch princess diaries..but only left e front row..so in the end go lido watch..THE DOLL MASTER...wahahaha...quite nice...also scary..ya..pei shan den later walk walk walk..go pacific plaza..den heereen...ya...den go eat at e hawker car park next to specialist centre..yeah..din eat much..cant eat..duno why..den went skate park..pei shan k kiang climb e ramp...den fell down..lol..not funny la..den e ppl there laugh..not reali laugh la..not funny...yeah..*lame*den later went to cini..den walked all e way to ps..den duno why me n pei shan felt like vomiting...but neva....yeah..den duno why moody..den later went home..ya..reached bout 10plus..ywah

2004-11-01T17:35:00.000-08:00

went far east with sis...bout afew badges...den went to heereen..bout a birthday card for duno who...ya..duno who to give also..sis said wana take neo prints but neva..ya..den went to shaw house to eat..before going for show.....mamamia was nice..ya...vey nice...yeah...today went to school for e maths..met kiah yong and jeremy...was late..den later rui kiet and edlyn came up with rui kiet cuz..ya..talk with edlyn...ya..sad la sad..ya..den rui kiet cuz waiteed outside cos jamil in school....den we went to look for miss tan den saw jamil..den quickly tuck in and so on..ya...im sorry rui kiet...i duno how to help you ask my co form teacher bout you transferring to our class.but ill try my best la..no promises...ya...hmmm.den hee xiang, chang cun , leslie loo and pui gek come our class for lessons..yeah....sian..miss tan gave us work...haiz...den after that went campass to meet pei shan..she outside squatting down like some ah lian...den saw pei ern and duno who outside 7-11...long time neva see pei shan sia...bout a year...yeah...den went her house downstairs to slack...yeah...i din no she smoke..yeah...den sit theretalk crap till bout 12plus..den go rivervale plaza eat kfc....watch her eat..so farnie...den talk talk talk den go bAck her house downstairs slack...say she wana quit smokin...ya...now in TP..so pro..congrats...den later went up her house...so simple...yeah..but nice....den went to NTUC buy panadol for her mum..den pass me 10 bucks take cab..so good..thank you...den call me dun use e change buy cigg!!!!yeah...
see ya around...mayb next week or wad go town with ya...

2004-10-30T23:45:00.000-07:00

2004-10-29T11:44:00.000-07:00

lots of stuff happened...haiz....nvm..haha..shall not think bout it..i got back my results today..whahaha..im so so so happy that i did not retain..yay...woot...i thought i might have retained...heng sia..i passed 3 subs...english,maths,chinese..but i must retake my chinese..yeah..haiz..gotta go back school next week..for maths and chinese..sian diaoz....yeah...lots of people from expresss drop sia....i cant believe it....kenneth stay back,hee xiang drop,xue hui stay back,wilber stay back,puay gek drop,brinston drop,derek drop,rui kiet drop..wha..haiz...jia lat la....haiz...oh well yeah..tonight got bbq,..yeah...my class...haiz..sian.....ya...

A friend......

is someone eho can open up and be herself/himself around you

will take the time to that's needed, no matter what time of the day, to listen to your problems and give you her/his advice

is someone who keeps promises,tells the truth, makes time for you and is someone to laugh with

is a person who knows what you are saying,even if you're not talking

understands wht you're feeling,even if you dont understands your own feelings

will always forgive you,usually before you forgive yourself

will do something for you and will not ask for a favor in return

will always say you look great even if you dont

will tell you if you have something in between your teeth

doesnt talk bad bout you

has a special place in your heart and is always there for you when you need them

is someone who will hold in a laugh when you make a fool out of yourself

is someone that you respects,who respects you and shares their feelings

make you feel good bout yourself

encourages you to reach for your goals

neva gets jealous of you

shares the good times and helps out by listening during the bad times

is there for you when you feel that the world is againist you

might get into fights with you but will always forgive you

doesnt laugh when someone makes a mean joke about you

likes you for who you are and not how you look like,because that is what really matters

is with you till the end

is someone that tells you when you are wrong but not in a bad way

is not afraid to be seen with you

will laugh at your jokes even if their bad

never blames everything on you

is someone who believes you when nobody else will

2004-10-11T19:04:00.000-07:00

sigh..sigh..sigh..sigh..why must this freaking shit happen..explain to you..dun wana listen..what the fuck???whatever la...im to blame la..happy???i cant go out with other girls arhz??got wrong anot??no right...jealous???if yes say so...yeah..talk to you on e phone...must shout arhz???i not deaf la..please...i guess its all over for the both of us..all the best..yupps...just wana be left alone for now i guess...

Hey *****,***** look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting My time doing things I Wanna do?
But it hurts when you Disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good Enough for you
I can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me ‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
I try not to think About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be My hero?
All the days You spent with me Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t Care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright ‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Nothing’s gonna change The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand
‘Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
‘Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect

WeLcOmE tO mY lIfE.....

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like some how you just don’t belong,
And no one understands you?
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
That no one hears you screaming?
No, you don’t know what it’s like,
When nothing feels alright,

You don’t know what it’s like,
To be like me!
To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,
Welcome to my life

Do you want to be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more,
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,
While deep inside you’re bleeding?

No you don’t know what it’s like,
When nothing feels alright,
You don’t know what it’s like,
To be like me!
To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,
Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face!
No one ever stabs you in the back!
You might think I’m happy,
But I’m not gonna be okay!
Everybody always gave you what you wanted!
You never had to work, it was always there!
You don’t know what it’s like (what it’s like)…
To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,
To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life!
Welcome to my life!

2004-10-09T01:15:00.000-07:00

im back since how long???haha...yeah..now its like 1am on a sun morning???everybody was like wearing a black tee,including claudia!!i was like the onli person in blue..haha...extra!!!!kiddin!!!was out since 10am in the morning??haha...i din no my parents would allow me to go out and study...how cool is that??yeah...went to meet josh...went to buy ciggs,den went to meet darren and stepf....watched police story...yeah..was super nice...we went to eat at long john but i did not eatno mood..no appitite....at plaza sing...yeah..had lots of time before the movie started..yeah...at 1st wanted to watch white chicks...but e couldnt decide on one..so in the end ended up watching the new police story..yeah...so cool...!!!!so touching!!!stepf brought her digi cam to show me..haha..all e photos...all so funny...she took a pic of my side view..was not bad...saw afew of my friends..ha..saw shawn from e alw couse.. with his stead,long time no see him...he told me he no need study..coz he confident..haha...pro... saw hui xin...still as tall as ever...told me she was working at duno wad freaks..yeah...she asked me wad i was doing here..den said i was studying..she was suprised..and joked that i would fail..wow...if i fail i will get you..haha....saw andy tay too...look different with his hair long..yeah...

after that we walked around and waited for claudia to come..yeah..den we sat outside starbucks...yeah...i went to smoke with claudia..yeah...we studied...stepf forgot to bring the history answers...crapps..oh well..yeah...claudia ordered coffee..haha..so ex..i had to pay onli 30 cents???haha....yeah...did maths..asked darren...yeah...he taught me...stepf did home econs..while claudia did maths too..yeah...after that we went to heereen..that was about 7??lol..we tried on caps,binnies(not sure how to spell)joked around with each other..haha..we all din eat dinner..i duno why i wasnt hungry..yeah...wanted to take neo prints..but we din..machine all sucked!!!yeah...hmmm..stepf's head was pain..yeah..den we went home bout 8plus..yeah..acc stepf back..yeah..while i was walking to e bus stop,saw lester playing badminton..pro...talked to him for awhile..den left..saw daryl and 1 boy..i forgot his name...they wrer on their way home i guess...yeah...reached home bout 9??haha..yaeh...mums away in hong kong and tokyo..yeah..she left last thurs..will be back onli on e 15..yeah...cool??ha...i guess im gonna stay home tmr...yeah,boring!!!!i must rali thank wei song for helping me with my chinese,ha...THANK YOU!!!yeah...heh....din no how to do chinese compo..yah....oh well...haiz..still got 7 more papers to go!!sobz....might be going out with sherms on fri after exams..yeah....wasnt free today...yeah...

might break up with her..haiz..sad..i duno what to do!!!!sad!!!!

stepf..and im sorry i neglected you for the past 1 whole week..im sorry buddy!!!yeah...seriously!!!take care!!!!

*****************life is short and we should make full use of it doing something meaningful....
you never know what life means until you've lost a friend who stupidly killed themselves over things that can be solved...haiz...*****************

**happy 15th birthday boon hong!!**all the best dude!!!

2004-10-01T16:00:00.001-07:00

So much for my happy ending
Oh,oh oh,oh oh

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something i did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hanging,
In a city so dead,
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things i thought i knew
And i thought we could be

You were everything,everything that i wanted
We were meant to be,supposed to be,but we lost it
And all the memories,sp close to me,just fades away.
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You're got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you im difficult
But so are they
But het don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things that i thought i know
And thought we could be

Its nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like i was the only one
Its nice to know that we had it all
Thanks for watching me as i fall,
And letting me know we were done

So much for my happy ending......

2004-10-01T16:00:00.000-07:00

so much for my happy ending...

2004-09-29T17:15:00.000-07:00

haiz...i got super bad bad bad news..argh...my hp dropped into the toilet bowl..can you imagine that??the toilet bowl??sobz sobz sobz...haiz,why does this have to happen to me???oh well...so now no hp means no smsing....yeah..so no more exceeding 100..haiz..oh well...yeah..bad luckie...

hmmmm..today had e maths test..so hard...almost fell asleep..heh...argh....english exam on friday...man..so fast..bout 8 more days till the real exam...yeah..scary man....

hmmm today sat outside for chemistry again..coz did not bring my book..yeah..i forgot all bout it until i was in school..heh..den wei song,kiah yong and me went to the toilet to make wet tissue bomb....muahahaha...wei song and i throwed it down from e 2nd level...stepfs class was having PE..yeah...den we threw and it hit jerome..so funny...den he came up..den we threw again..and it went right in front of felix..yeah..he was super pissed..heh..oh well...wei song made a very big ball and threw it down..it was like right in front of him..heh..he was sp pissed..yeah..almost got into a fight with him.yeah..oh well..

hmmm did not really talk to any girls...for the whole of chinese lesson..i was sitting with josh..and we talked...i was busy reading noel's geographical magazine..yeah...hmmm..did not day hi to her since yesterday...yeah..just walked past her...did not talk..oh well..yeah...hmmm... duno wad to do also..oh well..im sorry shermeen!!!!!

2004-09-28T19:30:00.000-07:00

exams exams....sian...not in the mood to study...dun feel like...cant concentrate...haiz..might retain this year..*scared....yeah....oh well...cant do anything..yeah..

yeah...today scored a goal..haha...*woot*....haha...long time never play soccer liao..today played with kiah yong,jeremy,keith,welmon,ervin and tree...yeah...kiah yong jeremy and me againist the other three..haha...i scored a goal..lol...i haven played soccer for quite a long time..yeah...josh was like watching me play...when i scored he was laughing..haha..hmmm..oh well..yeah...maybe cos of "LUCKY STRIKE"that i was able to score a goal...den derek boon hong they all come play..den derek suan me..say i duno how to play..coz i was like anyhow kicking the freaking ball..was freaking pissed with him...yeah..josh told me he was on e bus..but i din wana go tell him off..not because im a wuss or something..coz i dun 1 any trouble..coz i haven like fight with anyone for a long time..so duno if got the strength anot..yeah...

maybe ill take e hip hop/street jass course..after e exams..yeah...i duno...must think about it...hmmm...did not talk to her since yesterday...saw her today..but i din say hi..she din say hi...who cares...im keeping a distance away from her for about a month or so..till next year perhaps...i have my freaking reasons for doing so...yeah...thats it i guess...yeah...another boring day...yeah.....

2004-09-27T16:00:00.000-07:00

A glaring bulb above my head,
A broken promise for every tear i shed,
Stone cold walls,dead cold eyes,
why?cause i started early,learned all the lies.

Lost souls abound,mine sinks within,
When i think of all i might have been.
This is all that i am,a troubled teen,
All that is left of wild,hopeless dreams.

A flickerof heart,glimmer of hope.
This isnt how i'd planned to cope.
A small ray of light a ways off ahead,
And so hard to see from this cold hard bed.

''Times up-lights out''someone yells,
Each night these words echo off my cell.
Another day over-lost,out of sight,
No one but myself to wish good night.

I need a song to sing in troubled times,
A thought to soothe my raging mind.
And peace when i grow afraid,
...small comforts when im dismayed.

I want to play and be heard once more,
To fly hight again,to be free,to soar.
To live again,and leave the pain behind,
To feel love's touch,gentle and kind.

I need a new life,a chance,and a plan,
Somewhere to build on a rock,not sand.
Need to find new friends,have some good times like always,
And live in a house full of peace,
Laughter and joy,
with a room...thats mine...

uncle yewhuat brought me and ayn,ivan,yu xiang,sherman for breakfast yesterday..yeah..the food was good..yeah..thanks uncle yewhuat...yeah..now exams coming liao...beta study hard..haiz...this year pass by so fast..lots of unhappy things happened!!!!haiz...and very little happy things happened..yeah...so fast..haiz...good luck everybody for your exams...yeah...shermeen..you too....=p

2004-09-26T23:30:00.000-07:00

oh wow...finally back for bout a week??yeah...was like erm super busy!!den no time for com???ha..oh well..yeah..anyway last week dad was away..den went to meet stepf den take bus with her..yeah...we are not going steady or what..just good friends...its that alright with everybody??anyway yeah..hope or try to keep a distance away from her??yeah..i duno...yeah...anyway kendra got her car..so cool..yeah...her car was nice..sat n it for awhile on fri night..yeah..had a nice smell..haha...her birthday was on 20 step..wished her liao..yeah...anyway happy birthday again!!ha..yeah..

last tues mum was angry with everybody i guess..she was shouting around the house..and slamming every door she could find..madness!!!yeah...i feel like leaving every single moment i get scolded by my parents..its HELL!!!!i wana leave and never come back!!!yeah...its like theres no peACe..and i duno what to do!!!its tough..so tough...yeah...one say when i get fed up ill just walk out of this house and go find some other place..yeah..haiz...

oh..after exams i gonna go out with sherms..yeah..but must study now..yeah..haiz..promised her not to smoke for e whole of this week..yeah..try to ba..last night put down the phone with stepf..and talked to betty till one plus..haha..yeah...

ohh...dad just blamed me for talking e phone bills..i was like uh huh..i said i din take already...whatever la...blame me for all u want..i heck care liao..hmmm..maybe there will be peACe without me!!!yeah...i guess....haiz.....bye bye everyone...

2004-09-20T16:15:00.000-07:00

yeah,i havent written for about a week because nothing of the interest has happened.the same old dumb teachers teaching the same old dumb subjects in the same dumb school..i seem to be kind of loosing interestin everything.at first i though secondary school would be fun but its just dull..everything.everyone is just dull..maybe its just because im growing up and life is becoming more blase.yeah..

oh well.yeah..on sat whole day i was at tampines safra..coz of some church programme...yeah...it was quite fun..yeah..they played bowling and stuff...i din play..coz din feel like..instead accompanied shermeen to study..yeah...bored...dinner was good...yeah...there was sushi and stuff..lots of good food...and best of all it was free!!!!man...good buffet....there was sushi,bbq stuff and lots more!!!sta with lenard n shermeen...yeah..the oysters suck...i tried some wasabi ice cream that lenard mix with strawberry ice cream..at 1st i din no..yeah...so i just ate it...yeah...den betty confiscated my ciggs!!!haiz...poor me!!!and on sun she returned me 4 sticks onli...yeah...poor me!!!while she returned to me,she was like crying and talking to me!!im so sorry betty!!haiz...that i made you sad and everything..i know you care alot for me..yeah..i just wana say thank you!!!!i love you betty!!!!!

yesterday was dads birthday...yeah..went to swiss hotel to eat sushi..yeah..again..so ex...it was good..yeah...nothing much happened..yeah..

2004-09-10T01:21:00.000-07:00

Child of lost......

Sometimes i feel like a child of lost
With no where to go
No one to run to
A dark little angel with a very dark past,

Everywhere i turn
It seems like a stranger in the dark shadows
Engulfs me
Follows me
Haunts me.
No relief
No end in sight
From this painful stress-filles life.

Memory haunting memory
Of that troubled child inside
Wishing for:
A shoulder to lean on
A safe sure hand to hold on
A loving heart to talk with
A trusting soul in whom to confide
A someone to lead me
Out of the darkness
And into sunshine.

Where is that someone?
I'm searching
And i know youu are there
My heart tells me so
Everyone cares
About everyone

Most especially,
Those who feel
Like a child of lost.

haiz..................................

2004-09-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

if i could wash away my past,
awful and dreadful i've been to cast.
i feel lost,knowing not what to do. . .
where to go now or whom to turn to.
totally stressed. . .inside and out.

because of those days
stumbling around in a haze,
as my beautiful candle burned out.
shadows now haunt me. . .
stressing me. . .inside and out.

i'm clearly not here.
i have lost all was dear.
i should give up or perhaps already have.
i feel my life is over,
there is no slave,
only stress. . .insde and out

i'm embarrassed and hurting,
and so terribly ashamed
guilt-ridden and sorry for the troubles for others
on whom i've blamed.
for them,and me
i cry. . .inside and out

through my fingers life has slipped,
my heart feels pummeled,broken,riped.
can i throw these dark memories into the sea,
liked cremated ashes,all that old me?
cleansing. . .inside and out

my soul craves a new start,
need to jumpstart my heart.
could i really start over again?
am i sincere,a fool,or fooling?
another pertend. . .inside and out?

i need fresh wax,
a new candle moulda spirited scent for someone to hold.
to light it and wish for sweet inner peaceto burn at one end,
the old life to crease.no more stressing. . .inside out.

i pray the lost child hiding in me
will come take my hand,
help me to seeim not really alone,
just lonely inside.
it's a stressful world where'little me' hidestime to evolve. . .inside and out

my chrysalis is hard,
not easy to break,
endurance i know,
but the goal to a re-awakemeans re-love myself -- and treasure that wealth
i've got to commit mind,body,soul. . .
time to de-stress. . .inside and out.

2004-09-03T16:30:00.000-07:00

im back..haven updated since last wek..yeah...coz was simply busy..anyway tiday was the last day of school..yeah...sian..only one week holi...got to catch up and everything...yeah..not sure if can go out anot..hope i can..i wana go wild wild wet..ha..but i not sure which day going..i think i going with stepf they all ba..but i duno..yeah..argh..during the holis must go back for maths lesson..on wed and thurs..yeah...ha..haiz...yeah..lol..last week stepfs eye swollen..lol..coz i had..den she say i pass it to her..ha..den keep making fun..lol..oh well holidays are here..haiz..so fast end of year exam!!!dotz dotz dotz...oh well..yeah..im gonna miss my friends and school..oh well..everybody!!happy holidays!!!peACe OuT

2004-08-28T14:16:00.000-07:00

yesterday desmond kana whack by baby and johnathan they all..yeah..coz he peng wei.at 1st i thought they play play..den they reali whack...haiz...den guei call police..lucky i opposite looking..waiting for cab with benard and francis and wee loong..den stanley and his friends came..we couldnt get a cab..so we walked quite far..yeah..haha..den after waiting for bout 1/2 an hour den we finally got a cab..haha..yeah..i think i swollow my lip stud..den now i going to close the hole den mayb go buy piercer or go shop pierce..yeah..haiz..fucking hell..later got to go for counselling..haiz..i reali duun wana go....sobz.....

im back..yeah,on the way there..dad scolded me for mixing with aalex...they are my friends..i know what is right and wrong...knns..sometimes i feel like killing myself or running away fom home..this stupid home....fuck it!!!!!!..yeah...we went there late..i duno why the fuck he was so angry..knns..den the scolded the person there..yeah...den the lady told him to leave the room while she talked to me..den when he left..i cried...yeah..i duno why...now adays i have been crying...haiz...i talked to the lady bout 1/2 an hour coz no time..yeah..den on the way back i din talk to my dad in the car...we din talk to each other..just kept quiet..din say a single word..haiz..i cant be bothered and i dun care!!!!i din eat lunuch..yeah..he din buy..so i cant be bothered..anyway i din have any appitite to eat also!!!!

2004-08-25T18:00:00.000-07:00

yeah..din go school today coz of my sore eye...heh..bumming around the house today..lazing around and stoning..yeah...bored..i woke up at 1035..sec 3s just finished their recess..was suppose to call stepf...heh..but woke up late..oh well...yeah...din do anything..only watch tv and sleep...i went to sleep again bout 2pm to 4 plus..was super tired..yeah..duno why..i hope lex rmb to leave some for me...yeah...

today 2 sisters keep saying i should have gone to school coz i not doing anything at home..only watch tv and sleep...yeah...den i scold them..not say really scold...everybody keep asking me to do work and so on...so tired of hearing them say all these liao..yeah...just so tired...tired of everything!!!

2004-08-24T19:30:00.000-07:00

my eye super pian...wha,ike gonna go blind any min...yeah...then today super tired..wanted to sleep during every lesson coz my eyes like couldnt open..then wore specs today....felt weird..yeah...then tim helped me pierce my lips..yeah..cool??yeah..lol stepf bought a ear stud for me..but gave me the wrong one..as is what some girl and boy sign..oh well yeah..thx very muchie!!!yeah...went to see doc coz of eye..and guess what???i got mc...haha..so tmr no need go school..yesh!!!haha...oh well..can rest one day...onli...sian....so tired...yeah...haiz....dun feel like writing much today..yupps...

2004-08-22T23:30:00.000-07:00

i waited enough...yeah....haiz..at 1030 last night got scolded for 1 hour 45 mins...wha...i din no so long..haiz...parents came in then started saying this and that and that i so bold and everything!!!thank you!!!please dun anyhow say what i join gang or anything!!!which i did not!!!please dont fucking anyhow say!!!yeah...dad told me he talked to 3 of my classmates...wadeva la k....and my dad gave all the teachers his number and mums number..im like in jail...people spying on me everyday!!!im like in jail!!!cameras eveywhere!!!haiz...fark!!!everyday must go back home straight!!!feel like giving up studying and go and work!!!haiz...duno wad to do...

mr wong told my dad that i scolded him in hokkien..and said sorry!!!yeah..whateva la can...

mdm peng told my dad i skipp class and neva do work and so on....talk lots of crap...

miss tan told my dad i copy maths homework and so on...now every night must show him maths homework..haiz,crap...

today in church dropp tears..yeah...haiz..din no what happened...betty ask me to think of something so she can pray for me..den i couldnt think of one..i was so stressed up and confused..yeah..haiz..sorry...yeah..in the end sam and bets had to pray for me!!!thankies guys!!!i love ya....heh...my life is really in a big fraking mess right now!!duno what to do...haiz...i thank everybody for being there for me!!!yeah..thanks stepf and wend too......stepf said she bought something for me...yeah..thankies...

haiz..bad news...i might be transferring school next year..haiz...fark fark fark....

2004-08-21T16:00:00.000-07:00

haiz..now at home...yeah..this morning went to marina south fior sky diving..as in..not i do la..go there watch...so hot sia...so sian...coz my mum's company was the sponser there..yeah..so we went there..the subarus were super cool..mum said she took a pictre with tay ping hui...yeah...i saw ix shen but din see ping hui..mum said he might have gone up already...yeah...uncle kok beng's son so cute sia..yeah...i forgot his name..heh...-.-" haiz..now at home..yeah..dad went to school for parent meeting..din one to go coz later he surely scold me in front of the teachers...and he went to see ALL the teachers sia..*arghhhhh...scared sia..when he come home im dead...or maybe tonight..haiz..both mum and dad will surely scream at me AGAIN!!!!i hate it sia..haiz..cant do anything bout it also..haiz..

waiting waiting waiting waiting.........................................

2004-08-20T17:05:00.000-07:00

haiz..everything seems to be going wrong for me..haiz...whats wrong???i was just scolded by my dad on tues coz the fucking mdm png called my fucking home...and my sis talked to her and told my dad...and i later when i came back from school i got a scolding from my sister..and after dinner i was in my room got another scolding and lecturing from my dad...again...haiz...she complian that i skipped lessons,never do my work and talked alot a crap and trash...

(thursday)today again...after tuiton,got scoldeded by my dad AGAIN..haiz..duno which mother fucking teacher told my dad bout my report card..haiz..got 2 0s.....dad say i never do when i did!!!yeah...and he say what he got a report that i skipped chinese lessons...whatever la...

dad and mum keep saying if you dont like me say..like what the hell...i din even say anything bout what not liking you or hating you..haiz...say whatever you like...im not going to CARE!!!!if i want to study i will..if i dont i will say it out so i wont waste your freaking precious money....got it???say what gimmie freedom and where is it????where????say what u gimmie freedom and im still like that!!!where is it???dun talk cock when you never even give me my freedom..everyday go home straight..like im in jail...my sis can come home anytime they like..but me???im like a small kid..i dont feel that im a 15 year old kid!!!i would rather stay in boys town then at home..at least i can go out on fri sat and sun..instead of staying here with no freedom and anything...i dun haf to see your angry faces everytime when you guys come home...you show me a photo of myself when i was young for what fuck???so what..its still me!!!

haiz..duno what to say and to do la...what should i do with my life???haiz..its been ruined...everyday is the same..makes no difference if im here or not...yeah..

now its like friday..din update since mon i think..yeah...nothing to day..oh gosh..tommorow is meet the parents session..im like so dead...shit..my parents wana see all my teachers.-.can you imagine that..all..o well..i think they so free thats why..teacfher some more ask me to go also..im like uh huh...siao....later my parents scold me in front of them and it really sucks..den later surely on the way back scold in the car or what...i hate it..haiz...oh ya..thanks eleanor for helping me yesterday..yupps

DoWn In ThE dUmPs

2004-08-16T15:35:00.000-07:00

so feeling down......sian...wha..i die liao la..my parents wana see all my teachers on sat..like what the fuck..haiz..den everyone of them comfirm shoot everything come out im dead..just got scolded by them last week bout smoking.....argh..den i just got back my monthly report card..i fail everything...and somemore got 2 zeros...if add physics got 3 zeros...haiz....die la...haiz..everyone call me to study....haiz..dun feel like studying anymore and if i study still the same..makes wad difference...argh...haiz...what should i do????haiz...here are my results...

Jan- fail 2 subs
Feb- fail 5 subs,pass 2 subs
Mar- fail 6 subs ,pass 1 subs
Apr- fail 5 subs,pass 3 subs
Jul- fail 8 subs

im super dead..gonner.....haiz...........plus buddy im sorry...thanks for your concern and everything,sorry that i did not listen to you..but its hard...haiz...i like keep asking you bout advices and you tell me but i dont even listen...yeah...haiz....so sorry..buh-bye...

2004-08-14T12:30:00.000-07:00

feeling down today..duno why...sian..just came back frm church....went to tani halfway...to watch gymnastics...yeah..it was quite ok..i was feeling ok until aunt susan ask me to meet her for lunch next week!!!im screwed...everyday..haiz...she wants to talk to me!!juz now uncle steven stopped me..and he had a chat with me..asked me if i smoked..den i said yes...den he ask me to stop..and he even offered to buy me a pack...i was like...huh...den i said no..yeah..den he told me he smoked last time..yeah..he asked me to quit...yeah..keep talking to me..if onli my parents were this good...yeah...amy got a new hp..so cool..the samsung latest...pro...den took a pic with her on her new handphone...yup...she say she will send me the pic after she activate her mms...yeah...den today duno celebrated whoose birthday..duno wad name la..it was linyi's bro...yeah...such a wonderful and happy family...yeah..oh well..happy early birthday...uncle billy bought a cake for him...tiramisu...cool..yeah..but din eat..talked to sam...she said what next week must bring something frm your home and surrender it..yeah..she ask me to bring my cigg and surrender it..haiz..duno what to do la...dotz dotz dotz...kwok came today..din see him for so long..and david and edmund came back frm canada..i think they forgot who i was..oh well..yeah...stepf din come today..she overslept..oh well..yeah... din feel like eating lunch..so i din eat..

im dead..tmr must pas up the parent meeting form..shit..how to show my parents...die la....die la....sobz sobz...

2004-08-13T20:05:00.000-07:00

oh wow...guess what!!!today is friday the 13TH!!!!lol....wha..i haven updated my blog for like 4 days..haha...oh well..was busy...yeah...din go for chinese today..coz was like 3 purits...ans like so boring..the teacher sux....unreasonable...yeah...today mrs lau din come as usual..so miss tan took over..she was in my class like for 4 purits...taught A maths..will go crazy..maths make me mad!!!ah...theres gonna be a parent meeting session next saturday!!!ah.....im in deep shit...i got a pink form..crap...there are 2 forms,1 blue and pick...the blue 1 is if your parents wana come and see your teacher they can..if they unch one also can...but i kana the pink one!!!yeah...what the fuck...haiz...i so naughty..miss tan comfirm shoot out everything to my parents...and im dead!!!crap..haiz...den my parents will start scolding me again like before...oh welll....im dead again..everyday im dead..and i comfirm my parents will want to see all my subject teachers...and ask them to call them(my parents)if im not good or what...haiz...and again im in deep shit..yeah..so fuck up....fuck fuck fuck!!!!yeah!!i finally called singtel to get free mms!!!and i got it!!!yay..so now i can haf wallpaper....haha!!lame...yeah..thanks yu shuang for helping me with the music!!!yeah...bye..

2004-08-11T17:55:00.000-07:00

arloss..im back...yeah..this morning dad fetched me to school..and he like scolded me coz i neva show him what test papers..coz my freaking teachers email him and tell him bout me...yeah..my lifes in danger....screams....den i was like er okie..wanted to shout but did not..only waste my voice and effort..whats the point...its just a test...sign or dun sign whats the difference???i got 0 marks for A maths and physics can??happy???yeah...its just a test not any major exam or what shit...

after sch went to campassvale sec to look for ping xian...coz he got to settle something with some mother fucker who called him a dog...he was like damn scared..it was just me and him and 1 guy...yeah..and this fat bitch is like sec 4...only know how to talk big..yeah...we waited for him at the bus stop..not sure if he knew that we were waiting for him..so we waited until he boarded bus 89...we sat behind..after this old lady alighted we sat behind him...after that i changed place and sat opposite him..yeah..kept staring at him but he looked away...yeah..den ping xian changed place and sat in front of him with his friend..yeah..and he talked to him..his sec 4 and we like sec 3...lol...dotz dotz dotz..den he said sorry..when he was about to alight,i stared at him and he stared but din say anything and looked away..when he got down i scolded him..."kua lan jiao"...den he din say a thing..lol..yeah...boring!!!! oh ya..happy belated birthday audrey..haha..

2004-08-10T00:14:00.000-07:00

today morning went to macritchie reservoir to jog with my bro and mum and sis...bout 8am???woke up so freaking early..bo liao...yeah...last night while having dinner at home,my parents just started to scold me for nothing...like what the hell...i was sitting there quietly eating..when suddenly they just stared at me and starting scolding me bout smoking...yeah...i was like what the hell..scold me for what when i neer do anything wrong...yeah...and i was like doing my work halfway,they suddenly came into my room againl...and again scolded me..what the fuck???haiz...my mum asked me if i was happy in this family???i said yes..when in my heart i din no what was the answer...haiz..they asked me if i ever considered being part of this family and if i ever considered if this was a happy family and if this was a good family??i juz said yes when i really duno what is the real answer myself!!!!what is the answer???i duno...haiz...HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!they asked me what i wanted to do after my o levels...i said i duno!!!all i can say is i duno!!!!haiz!!!!!why????why????whats wrong with me???i haved change since i was in sec 1!!!why???im just sorry!!!but i know saying sorry cant do anything!!!my parents say wana send me go boys home and a rehab centre!!!if you wana send me go ahead ba...haiz!!!!buddy stepf ask me to take it slowly..and she will support me all the way no matter what decision i make..haiz...and she say she will help me talk to my parents..i was like...i duno if its a good decision..but thanks alot buddy!!!i dun wana loose everybody stepf.. my friends etc....you said i could loose my friends but not my parents...haiz..i dun wana loose anybody!!!not you!!!yeah...haiz..what should i do?????who can i talk to??i dun wana talk to my parents although they asked me too..haiz...i wana runaway and get out og this world where i can have my own freedom!!!!

shit im being watched by all my teachers in school!!!every wrong move i make im a dead teenager...every move i make they will report to my parents!!!im being watched everywhere i go!!!im like in jail!!!screwed up life!!!im a prisoner in school and in my own home!!!im like under probation!!!what the fuck!!!help me.........im dying...im going crazy!!!!

juz now saw xue hui on tv ...dancing with jj lin!!!pro!!!my sis and daryl were marching too..yeah..and i pitied this guy who almost dropped his flag..yeah..luckily he din..if not he would be SCREWED..haiz...i shall watch singapore idol now!!!yeah...HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!YOU ARE OLDER NY A YEAR LE!!!!yeah..

2004-08-08T03:15:00.000-07:00

today went to church bout 7plus..hmmm..was walking in and yans car stopped beside me and i got in..haha..cool???lol..wei wen was driving..and she was wearing vjc uniform...lol...and wei xin was there too with their mum..haha...wei xin sneaked back without telling them..lol..haha..and she pierced her eye brow...cool???yeah...haha...but she closed it coz her parents were anot happy i guess...yeah..almost all the youths wore school uniform today...haha...even sandra and evan and karen and mavis...lol...yeah..had a fun time today...haha...oh well...duno wads wrong with sherman...after service he was happy coz linyi was there..lol...she quite chio la..ivan and sherman wana jio her..haha..lol...not interested i guess...yeah...served food today....yeah...haha...not bad ba...den halfway asked alvin to help me takeover..coz i went to take something from yvonne...yeah..i din no the shop can buy sia..haha...try my luck next time...yvonnes friend so violent..haha..keep whacking me juz bcoz i wore her cap..oh well..and betty caught me with ciggs....im sorry!!!yeah...not many girls there..coz ppl frm ko chuan sec was suppose to come..but oh well..yeah...i asked buddy stepf to come..but she not free..haha..coz she with her family in chalet...cool??den they were like going to wild wild wet today...so cool...i wana go too..haha...wad a hip and funky family..yeah..wished i had a family liddat...but....yeah..so she might be coming next week...yeah...den after that my dad came to fetch me and i went back to get change and we went for lunch with my grandma and aunt and my 2 sis and bro and mum and our 2 lit naughty brats..haha...who are jasmine and julian...which are out niece and nephew...shawn our cuz from australia couldnt come coz he got some stuff to do in church...yeah..julian and jasmine are going back to thailand..gonna miss them..yeah..both so cute..hahaa...after that my 2 sis and i walked around....yeah..then they saw their friend...then the friend thought i was the boyfriend..haha..then she said we looked alike...yeah..and i saw hee xiang and wan wan and xbc..haha..they were wondering who i was with..oh well...yeah..haha..goodbye..yeah...im so freaking sorry...im like cheating on these 2 ppl...fuck..i will not mention their names...im reali sorry!!!and thx wendyl for your advice!!!yeah

2004-08-06T17:45:00.000-07:00

today had half day...was suppose to go to ikea with teacher and darren..but teacher not free...then we went to look for miss tan..then she was like..no hurry to get those stuff what...so we neva go lor..wasted my time...but mrs wong aka principal was willing to pass us the cash..haha...and she asked me to pay for the cab fare back..coz she said i was like loaded...so funny...like im loaded liddat...darren din wan to to today...so left me and stepf...but in end we din go...she went to town with pei ern and hwee hong...so we din go...yeah..stepf also wanted to go..and audrey...haha...then could have called audrey to choose stuff for our class cosy corner..lol...but we din go lor...wasted sia....should have taken this chance..lol..oh well... yeah...not this type of opportunites come once in a life time..oh man..shucks....oh well then walked out of school with hwee hong stepf and pei ern...yeah...den took mrt to meet francis...yeah..then stanley called say he got taiji...yeah..we waited for cab..den we just got into the cab..he called say taiji finish...like what the hell..so asked taxi driver to U turn back to campass point..yeah...wasted 290...oh well..yeah..then we went to meet tim and mich lee...yeah..at bk...was suppose to go to tim house but did not...haha..he was like so pissed...oh well..heck care...thought he went steady with mich but neva..heh...den francis and i went to look of stanley again...but this time we took a bus..lol...then yang yi called johnathon johnny they all come down...like wad the fuck..why of all people must call them???they suck....so action...oh well..the taiji finish liao..they find the 3 ppl and they talked...den francis left...yeah..so left me stanley yangyi and fat alvin...den we got onto bus 62..den saew those 3 ppl still there...lots of bus came by abd they did not board...den yangyi say mayb johnathan wana whack them..so we got down..and walked back...haha...den all not there...lol..den there was these few girls at the same bus stop which we got up the bus..den they were like surprised to see us back there..haha..oh well..den waited for 62 AGAIN..lol...den n board..got a call from wei sheng..say what johnathan call 20 plus ppl go whack those 3..we were like what the fuck..haha...i joked that lets drop again and go find them...haha...i din no that stanley and telicia broke up...coz afew weeks back i thought it was odd that they were not together...oh welll....so sorry stanley...yeah...chill dude..take it easy!!!everyday every night got problems..argh..duno what to do...haiz...thx yu shuang and mich lee...yeah...

Just kept thinking and thinking. heart is drench in problems. i just kept thinking bout... dying.. dying... thinking that death is the only way out. at least,if i die all my problems are solved..my problems just seems to never end.

first, my studies.
second,my buddy,i haven been talking to her...haiz..
third, school
forth, family problems
fifth, money.
sixth,friends

what the fuck..i duno what to do...what should i do???

2004-08-05T04:09:00.000-07:00

com got virus...duno what my sister do..oh well..cant do anything bout thoise stupid pop ups...today i scolded dino aka mr wong the f a g g...coz he suan me...i shouted in front of the whole class...he say what talk to girls what so excited...when im not...i juz asked my friend bout my textbook...den he suan me..den i scolded him...i said lan jiao..duno dun anyhow say..i ask her bout my textbook onli you asy all these stuff...kpkb....den he keep quiet..say what i scold bad words..and taht i join gang....ass hole...today also scold simon aka pervert....coz i laughed very loud...then he say tiam...everybody hates him...i tell him not happy come...then he there action...then scold me lan jiao..then i said huh wad???my lian jiao here...not there..den i went in front of him and said....its here...do you want to suck it????den did e action..den everybody laughed...den he got nothing to say...den everybody call me to relex...haha...pro...coz he yesterday k kiang,like action..kenneth climb in the window coz the classroom door lock..den he followed..like 1 dog liddat...den he fell down..and broke the window panes..bout 3....yeah..den got blood...yeah..den he went to general office..den we read his journal...he wrote bout hui min breaking his heart...haha...simon!!!you deserve it for climbing the window!!!you son of a bitch!!!your mum is a bitch do you know that????and u???a bustard..mother fullet!!!lol....u suck!!!wana klj come find me!!!lol....oh well...stepf din come ytd and today...duno whats wrong with her...din msg her or talk to her...coz i also duno why...yeah...muz haf some reason but i duno what....hope shes fine!!!!yeah...hmmm haven been talking to her for so long...yeah...goodbye...take care...tmr going to school to watch buddy wend perform..haha...good luck!!!yeah....good luck eleanor and yu shuang!!!

2004-08-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

today sunday...yeah..mum returned me my phone..im so sorry!!!yesterday went to church...din play games..sat there and talked with samantha for awhile..yeah..den went to church..den they played captians ball or wad crap..din play..sat inside church..with lenard..den he played the piano..while shermeen was sleeping..haha..den woke up and offered me chocolate..how kind..haha...i offered to someone else she ask me dun offer..haha..so kind...yeah..den offered me another one..yeah..den walked back with rap and len...rap cycled....den after that went home..den went for wedding dinner bout 8pm..so late..went for malay wedding...den mum and dad were like scolding me in the car...and my bro and sis were there...eldest sis was at NDP...ask me not to smoke and study..mum said if you hate me so much den study for urself..sometimes i tell myself that im not going to care for you anymore..you can do whatever you want...smoke or dun study..its up to you...yeah..i also duno what to do...so fucked up..the wedding was held at bishan..some block of flats..there was like a guy from mediacorp radio there..he joker sia...he like DJ keep telling jokes...yeah..den asked my mum to sing...so funny..but din laugh...the food there sucked!!!haiz...wedding ended bout 1015...while in the car...dad told us dat there was a GAY couple there...from australia...they english...one australian chinese,the other is australian...they are gay...both of them are an item!!can you believe that???F A G G!!!there was a dance too..yeah...boring boring...

today damn shagg...so tired..woke up bout 730am to go church...last night slept bout 1am!!!so tired...yeah..sermon was boring today....went to haf lunch with sherman and yan and daryl and ivan..while we were walking,sherman was bragging all the way...ivan told me got ppl stare at him in school..coz he act beng..he was like so scared..haha...oh well..ate at heartland,den while i boarded the bus,saw shermeen and jon and his sis...yeah..said bye to them...shermeen was asking me bout chocolate...yeah..den went home to eat pizza..shit im growing fat..lol...cant eat liao...damn...had tuiton...den went for swimming..so tiring...yeah....sucked!!next week muz wear sch uni to church coz youth sunday!!yeah..cool....but my uniform sux....haiz...oh well im going to sleep now!!nitez....haiz...fuck it...

2004-07-30T23:00:00.000-07:00

sad sad sad sad sad sad sad...ny hp kana confiscated by my parents...juz becoz of a maths test paper..kana scolded by them yesterday night...den i slept at 1am.....mum slapped me...dad shouted at me...my life is really in a mess!!!duno what to do!!!argh..im reali lost.....need to concentrate on my studies now and lots more...haiz...im sorry mum and dad for everything i did wrong..i know i did lots of stuff which are wrong..smoking and everything...haiz...im always the one whose always getting scolded!!!its my fault...not yours....im the one...from young until now still kana beaten...why not sis n bro???haiz..wad did i do wrong????i have been tolerating..but i keep quiet bout it....its not my fault for mixing with alex they all...they are my friends..is it wrong for me to mix with them??ppl in my class u also not happy..den might as well transfer school right????if you want to send me to boys town go ahead!!!i dun want to stay in this house!!!coz it sucks....if you all wana send go ahead!!!i dun care..at least its better then staying here!!i dread staying here..after school haf to go home straight..like cant you guys gimmie free time???i cant even go out on weekends or what..ask also you all dun allow...den wad???wait until holis????crap man!!!haiz...sis..can you please mind your own freaking beeswax???muz go see ppl blog arhz???i dun even see yours...so please mind your own beeswax...i know you care..and i hope that you are not th one who told dad and mum that i still smoke..coz i trust you..you are the only person in this family i trust..but please dun let me down!!!and plz do not msg me or what..coz i no hp...so fucked up!!pissed with everyone!!!argh...today went back with claudia..but saw tung tung at the bus stop..so i left her..den she wei sheng they all..den took cab with them..took till wee loong house..den took bus....yeah...den after school got poungol sec ppl find xiao ba and mole..coz i think mole go scold them or what crap...oh well...yeah..bye bye..im sorry everybody!!sorry stepf,betty,sam,mum,dad,sis 1 n 2....haiz..

2004-07-30T19:28:00.000-07:00

alone???help...

2004-07-29T03:44:00.000-07:00

sian.....today got history test...so sian...sure fail again..fail fail fail..so crap!!!!nothing happened today..yay..im gonna be out of morning reading soon..heh heh..shall celebrate..nah..just kiddin..not in the mood to do so..oh well...hmmm before chinse lesson went to smk..went toliet inside some small room with josh..yeah..he went in 1st then i went in...whoa..sia..i was like outside...den the cleaner came in..luckily we knew him..and he asked if i was smking...told him yes...den asked him if got any students or teachers come into this toilet...he said very litte..den josh came out and i went in..smk damn fast..haha..dwas like giddy...coz 1st stick of the day....yeah...tmr no ciggs!!!ah...oh well juz get frm noel...yeah...so many things happened recently at home and in school...so screwed up...duno what to do!!!help....argh...everyones changed!!!duno wad the fuck or what happened!!!this morning din talk to my dad...coz last night almost quarrel..and yesterday he neva go to work..den i went to use the com after i took a nap..den he kpkb..knns...thought i was playing games..i just on the com only...den he call me to off..!@#$%^&*....den this morning he fetch me to school..den in the car we din even say a word...i just looked out of the window thinking what the fuck is wrong with my life!!!whats wrong???haiz...duno la...betty!!!!im so sorry!!!i duno what to do!!!!haiz...

ThErEs a MiRRoR iN mY hEaRt,
rEfLeCtiNg AlL I aM tO mE,
rEmInDiNg mE tHaT iM nOt gOOd eNoUgH,
fOr aLL i wAnT tO bE...

i TrY tO hIdE fRoM tRuTh aND lIgHt,
fOr tHEy brInG oUt All mY fEArS,
sHoUtInG oUt aLL mY wEaKnEsseS...

wHeN i Look IntO tHe mIrRoR oF hEarT,
i wAnT tO sEe sOmEoNe sPecIaL iN mE....
ivE fOrGeTTen wHo i rEally aM,
wHo iM mEANT tO be,
wHerE dOeS mY lIfE fIT in??
iM trYiNg haRd to uNdErstAnD.......

2004-07-28T08:15:00.000-07:00

hey...duno why today everybody so angry..siao...come home...everybody keep scolding each other..so fucking retard...oh well...today got A maths test..fail liao la...haha...i neva even do anything or write anything..onli draw the axis...so freaking hard....haha..heck care la...sian diaoz...jo-lynne arhz..you arhz...haha..got bus to take dun want take...muz take cab!!!haha..after smk liao with lex tee,syed and jo-lynne we went to the bus stop..den lex tee went for detention...jo-lynne keep pestering me to take cab...den i give up liao ask her to flag a cab..den took cab with syed and her...asked shirlene to come coz got pass her house she dun one..haha..oh well...mayb she thinks that me and jo-lynne are wad la...haha...which we arnt....sia the taxi driver pro sia...his a malay and he knows how to speak hokkien,cantonise and chinese..pro sia..haha...also very friendly...yeah...this week duno why so moodless...sian..duno what to do with my life..so suck..everybody sucks!!!everything sucks!!!!argh!!!!!!!!duno who to talk to bput my problems..now onli can talk to wendyl..yeah...nth to say to stepf..duno why...but i still care for you..but i duno how to tell you....argh!!!!crap....i going off liao...crap....hope tmr will be better!!!!!bye bye

2004-07-27T17:45:00.000-07:00

hey...so moodless today....sian...hmmm today had my 2.4 run..ha..muz run 7 rounds sia..and i failed!!!OH MY GOD..lol..haha...im so not pround of myself..haha...LAME...haha...oh welll..cant be bothered...i run 1 round liao chest pain...liddat how to cpmplete 7 rounds???tell me how??haha...let me see..i qwas the 3 last..then caught up with shawn....and got 4th last position..haha...oh well...then hwee hong got 21. duno what...haha...oh well...haha..sian...super tired...hmm today got chem test..i got study sia..but duno if will pass coz do some stuff wrongly..oh well...tmr got A maths test..sure fail 1..everyday test...sian!!!will die 1..boo hoo...haha...crap...oh well..sian.....ok i go sleep liao..cya

2004-07-26T19:45:00.000-07:00

hi..again...sian..what a boring day in school..everyday is so boring...haha...hmmm...nothing o say bout school...today got physics test..oh well i slept the whole way through surely fail...coz was super tired..coz last night couldnt sleep...woke up at230..den wee loong sms me..den i sms him back...haha...was surprised that he was still awake..but after that i couldnt sleep..so listened to music...haha...den woke up at 620am..i was late....haha..had to rush coz dad fetched me to sch..den on the way saw guei in the car..haha...he drive super fast sia...haha..pro...haiz...there are many things which i regret doing sia..but what to do..cant change that..cant do anything..oh well it sucks...everyone is like drifting away...oh well also duno...everyone is doing their own things...also no time...hey blog..do you know the feeling of missing someone really very much but cant talk or see the person...like no time liddat..oh well sadded sia..haha..gtg liao..cya..er...thanks buddy stepf for helping me...

2004-07-25T23:30:00.000-07:00

stupid parents..onlu know how to scold ppl...i neva do anything wrong muz scold...juz like in the afternoon,onli neva drink water mum muz scold...so fuk up..den juz now doing work half way dad scold...fuck.onli a calculator muz scold..stupid sis..borrow her calculator got wrong meh???fuck sia..liddat onli all muz scold...sian...all my fault la..im the onli one around the house who always get scolded...no matter what if i do anything correct or wrong muz scold until like fuck liddat..stupid freaking family...!!!!!!

2004-07-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

good morning dear webbie...haha...*lame*its a boring sunday morning...coz there is onli me at home..haha...parents and maid went to china town and bro went for class and both sis went to church duno for what..haha...but i din go church today..decieded to stay at home coz not feeling too well..hmmm coz last night s**** duno how many sticks at one go..haha..then felt like vomiting while i was on the bus on my way home from my school concert...den came home and vomited...den was like having a headache*ouch*..went to meet boon hong jinjie they all then went for the concert...coz syet went out with his dad...oh well its all right i guess...the concert was quite nice..esp the teachers dance item and i guess that was about it...and the choir was not bad either....but they put make up so *argh*yucks..eeewwwww....haha...*LAME*buddy was like standing there...right at the 1st row corner...haha....was like so funny...she put make up and everything...AHAHAHAHA....just kiddin...heh...wei liang brought his stead too...not bad...haha..but not going to jio her...haha...saw lincon with his pals...i think he din reconigse me..oh well...he arrived in a lorry with his pals..cool sia..haha...and he blast the music after the concert and left..lol...pro!!!haha..we left b4 the concert ended...bout 915???haha...den boon hong they all go eat and played cs...din join them coz i was waiting for buddy...haha....den in the end she told me that her mum was here to fetch her...haha...den i was like..oh ok..den she like scolded me..haha..oh well...nvm..anyway im sorry!!!haha...buddy since you are sick take care lots k???u stilled perform although you were sick..yeah...good might...haha..yep...thats bout it...im so bored now!!!oh well shall go watch tv...cya blog...bye...take care buddy!!!!love ya loads!!yeah..heh heh

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2004-07-25T02:06:00.000-07:00

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2004-07-25T01:51:00.000-07:00

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2004-07-24T20:48:00.000-07:00

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2004-07-23T13:30:00.000-07:00

today sch dismiss us early...at 12..coz tonight and tmr got concert...oh well..good..haha..yeah..came back bout 1...den tonight got to go for my bros concert...sian!!!going with my cuz who juz came back frm australia...so good...haha..den with my parents and grandma..my two sisters going for their own school concert..yeah at ACS barker...lol...oh well den haf to hear my mum nag..anyway today was boring...everyday is boring..in school..sian...haha..den tmr going my school concert..haha..duno if want to borrw digi cam from jas...see how 1st..and thanks cheryl for helping me make the tagg board..yuppies..peAce out

2004-07-21T17:45:00.000-07:00

wha..my hand got blister sia...coz yesterday help my dad dig hole...garden so big sia...dig until got blister...sian..haha...now i know its so hard digging a hole..lol..so tiring..haha...so hard..sian...today another boring day in scholl...this morning went to hall for e racial hormany concert..so sian!!!stupid co form teacher..so kiasu..bring us to the hall..and we were like the 1st class there...so kiasu...cant you go abit later..go so early for what...den we were like sitting right in front..so stupid and embaressing..altough got 1st class view it sucks...i was like sitting in the middle...haha..so i moved to the side...den sat with tim and kenneth..lol..sian..den like during the 3 purits of A maths stupid so form teacher scold us again...we never do anything wrong scold us for nothing..say wad we make u angry when you are the one loosing your temper..stupid..*bitch*o well..tomorrow got E maths test...study also no use..surely fail one...haiz..bye bye..hmmm wonder hows buddy doing..haven been taking to her...

2004-07-20T00:20:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey...im like so super tired...yesterday wne to play tennis...but din play very well coz was like coughing all the way...but it was fun as usual...haha...i think i improved...lol...haha...o well...today in school so tired,den so sian...after sch shared cab with wee loong..he dropped me at hougang mall and went to heartland mall.went to meet my sis coz she wanted to make eZ link card...so troublesome...when i reached there i called my sis..and she was still at home..haha..make me wait there...but wen to macs..coz stepf was there with pei en..haha..den went there to meet them..den after that my sis came,den said hi to stepf..den i said bye to them and went with sis to make eZ link card..but she went to buy cake 1st..haha...den went to interchange...had to wait for 10mins..den after that went home..so super tired..haha..den i was suprised to see my other sister waiting at the door as she had no key..haha...yeah..im going to sleep now..haha...bye bye

2004-07-18T14:25:00.000-07:00

yay...finally got blog liao..haha...must thank stepf buddy for helping me do up everything..yupps....thx dear buddy...haha..yeah...o well now at home doing work..juz came back frm church bout 1230...haha...duno why my tummy pain sia....crap....argh*later got tuiton at 4pm...sian....now everybody not at home expect me....haha...mum brought 2 sisters go cut hair...wonder how they would look like....bro go for class...dad go play golf...sian...oh shit i forgot to ask mavis bout the camera...oh well..nevermind..ill message her!!!haha...ok i go do my work liao...sian ah!!!!! =byebye=